Kiki's Delivery Service

Kiki's Delivery Service ★★★★

I watched this once when I was thirteen, immediately after my birthday. I hadn't seen it again since then, until now, because I'm supposed to be writing an essay that analyzes Miyazaki's portrayal of female characters. I didn't want to watch it again, not because I didn't enjoy it or anything like that, but because I think I enjoyed it too much. It struck a chord within me, like most Ghibli movies do, but on a much more personal level. Watching it, I see myself in Kiki, in her naivete, earnestness, and most of all, her frustration. I've felt her anger, that "Why for the love of god can't you just do this?" feeling when you try something and try and try and try, and it still doesn't work. I've cried late at night, and flopped into my bed, and avoided my friends because I felt like shit. I've doubted myself, enough so that doing anything seems simply impossible. Seeing Kiki do this, it's like an uncomfortable mirror being held up to me. I don't know what to think other than "... well shit."

But the catharsis, her reclamation of inspiration, and relationships with other women, her being able to save the day and continue her training as a witch, a little wiser and better for her struggles, that's what really hits too close to home. I want that! Desperately! And seeing it onscreen... it's just too much.

To me, this movie is a rarity. I can't watch it too often, and when I do it needs to be appreciated to its fullest. That sounds insane, I KNOW. But I'm seventeen and crazy and all I want is a little attic room by the sea. So let me have my quirks, please... It's what Kiki would want :'|

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