no one: 
my brain 24 hours of the day: DONT YOU SWEAR AT ME YOU LITTLE SHIT. DONT YOU EVER RAISE YOUR VOICE AT ME I AM YOUR MOTHER. DO YOU UNDERSTAND? All I DO is WORRY and SLAVE and DEFEND YOU and all I get back is that FUCKING FACE ON YOUR FACE. So full of DISDAIN and RESENTMENT and always SO annoyed. WELL NOW YOUR SISTER IS DEAD. and i know you miss her, and i know it was an accident, and i know you’re in pain and i WISH i could take that away for you. i WISH i could SHIELD you from the knowledge that you did what you did bUT YOUR SISTER IS DEAD. SHES GONE FOREVER. and what a waste! if it could have maybe brought us together or SOMETHING. if YOU could have said “i’m sorry” or faced up to what happened, maybe then we could DO something about this BUT YOU CANT TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR ANYTHING. so now I can’t accept. and i CANT forgive. because.. because NOBODY ADMITS ANYTHING THEYVE DONE.